S4 Episode 7:

I have sat down and tried to write this episode over a dozen times. The words would flow and then they’d stop. How does one possibly sum up ten years into words? Ten years of missed milestones, ten years of laughter followed by tears. Ten years of working through grief, it’s a constant battle andContinue reading “S4 Episode 7:”

S4 Episode 6:

February 12, 2012 is forever engraved into my memory. I’ve tried to hold onto every precious detail of that day. Even the moments that I was short with you. That day February 12, 2012 was the last day I saw you alive. It was the last day that I got to spend with you. ItContinue reading “S4 Episode 6:”

S3 Episode 10:

It has been ten years since I spent a Christmas with Charlie. He loved everything about Christmas, including movies and parties. He’d sing the carol “Three Ships” until his throat hurt or until someone threatened to strangle him (that person was most likely me). A Charlie Brown Christmas was on repeat, he knew the linesContinue reading “S3 Episode 10:”

S3 Episode 3:

I have been to more funerals than weddings. I have written more eulogies than I have maid of honor speeches. I have said see you later more times than I care to count. It seems this life I’m living is riddle with loss on all sides of the line. That loss hits especially hard whenContinue reading “S3 Episode 3:”

Hey There!

Listen NOW on Apple Podcast Hey friend! I realized that I haven’t properly introduced myself yet…. that was so impolite of me! Hi I’m AmandaJean, but you can call me AJ. I hail from the land of 10,000 lakes, have a weird obsession with dinosaurs, sour gummy candy, and PYREX. I’ve been through a lotContinue reading “Hey There!”

{Charlie}

Listen NOW on Apple Podcast When someone you love dies, living through their milestones is hard. Today would have been Charlie’s fiftieth birthday. Because of a drunk driver there will be no party and a cake glowing with fifty candles. Instead there will be silence cut with a slice of cake with one candle asContinue reading “{Charlie}”

{Summer Series}

They say every person we date changes us. For some it’s for the better and for others it can be for worse. If you are in the latter do not beat yourself up over it, sometimes good people fall into bad relationships. What matters is what you do with the lessons that you learned. DidContinue reading “{Summer Series}”

{Life Lessons} Gary

Listen NOW on Apple Podcast At one time I never marked the Alaskan/Native American box on forms. I felt no one would believe me, I didn’t want to be seen as a fraud. 25% didn’t feel Indian enough. I’d hang my head when someone asked me if I was Native, I’d respond with a quietContinue reading “{Life Lessons} Gary”

It’s a new era!

Listen NOW on Apple Podcast If you’ve been around a while you know Maybe Swearing Helps started out as a duo. Well with all good duos, sometimes they split and go there separate ways. And that is perfectly ok. Because you still have me AJ aka your Minnesota BFF. I realize that life isn’t alwaysContinue reading “It’s a new era!”

{Adulting}

Shitty things happen to good people. No matter how hard we try to avoid it, the shit comes along with the good. It’s a cycle. Our lives ebb and flow, it’s up to us to find the beauty in the disaster. it’s up to us to find the lesson in the struggles. And once weContinue reading “{Adulting}”