S4 Episode 1:

I’m not one for trends. Trends run rampant on Tiktok, there are so many that I cannot keep up. However there is one that I just can’t stop thinking about. It irks me in a way. “What I eat in a day as a fat person who is not trying to loose weight.” I’m sorry why do you need to justify to the world that you as a fat person do not over eat and that you have no intention of losing weight!? Like why!? I just don’t get it.

I’ve seen hundred of “what I eat in a day” videos. It’s always I ate this for breakfast, drank some water, and had a coffee. This is what I had for lunch, I didn’t eat all of it and I drank some water. Oh for a snack I had a Luna bar, which is so good and drank more water. Then I got home and we went out for dinner, don’t worry I didn’t eat all of it, and I drank more water.

I’m pretty sure a lot of folks make these videos for accountability reasons. Which is perfectly fine, if you need to make a video to hold your self accountable or for mindful eating, do it up girl!

Where I feel it gets hairy is the focus on “as a fat person who is not trying to loose weight.” First of yes you are fat, I’m fat too, but you are more than your weight. You are a beautifully vibrant human being. And you do not need to prove to the world what you eat in a day. There is no fucking reason for it. You are human and you eat food to fuel your body and not for likes on the internet. You eat food to sustain yourself and not for TikTok views. And the fact that you don’t want to loose weight is your business and no buddy else’s. If you are happy with who you are inside and out, that is all that matters. Be beautifully you, stop caring about what others think. Sometimes the hardest critic we face is ourselves and we need to quite that voice in our head with a bag of sour gummy candy.

Lord knows if I did one of those videos it would go like this “hi I’m AJ and I am a fat person here is what I eat in a day. For breakfast I had a breakfast sandwich, some OJ with my herbal vitamins, coffee, and I walked past the sour gummy candy in the pantry and ate a few. I think it was gummy worms, by it I’m not sure. I went to caribou and got a large ice crafted press with white chocolate and malt powder, it’s so good. I realized it left a bag of sour patch straws in my car, I was going to eat some, but the new Prius mouse got to them first. My ADHD brain took over and I didn’t eat lunch, but I did have a spin drift with a handful of chips. Yup it was definitely sour gummy worms, I had some more when I was looking for steak seasoning in the pantry. I had another spindrift while making dinner. Steak and scalloped potatoes hit the spot, I washed it down with two hard ciders and yet another spindrift. Went to the pantry to get poop bags for Cullen’s walk and grabbed another handful of sour gummy worms and ate them as we walked. Before bed I had a smoothie, drank it in bed while watching trash TV.

That is literally what I eat in a day. Yes I have a problem with sour gummy candy….. every time I go to the kitchen I grab a few and walk around my house eating said candy. It’s not unusual for me to take sour gummy candy into the shower, it gets wet and looses its sour coating so it’s not an ideal place to eat sour gummy worms. But yeah I do it and sometimes I drink my smoothie in the shower and/or tub. I’m a busy lady, so I gotta do what I gotta do.

Back to the TikTok trend. You are beautiful and you owe nothing to the world. Eat what makes you feel good. Eat the amount of food that satisfies you and not the portion society tells you to eat. You are unique and you’ve had your body long enough to understand what it takes to fuel it. Maybe you are like me living on spindrift and gummy candy. Or maybe you are like Cindy Lou who powers herself with organic grains and salads. At the end of the day the only thing that matters is that you nourished your heart, your soul, and your tummy. You are the only ones me who knows how to take care of you. So put down your phone, enjoy your food, and tell the nay sayers to fuck off.

Published by NinjaInTheCity

AmandaJean is a thriving pulmonary embolism & stroke survivor, passionate Paralegal, Advocate, and Blogger who believes she can change the world one person at a time. She is obsessed with the Law, beauty subscription boxes, collecting costume jewelry, visiting flea markets, Ruby Red Squirt and Candy Corn. World Traveler. Serial Volunteer. Lover of Frank Lloyd Wright, Heart Healthy Living, and good wine. Mama to a Muppet like dog. Aunt to @HalfPintNinja

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